I had a partial false hope the other day that taught me an excerise in patience and faith because I got an email saying that I was actually cleared to go and was pretty darn excited about it. I thought after onths of not knowing where I was going, I would finally know where I was going and the exact date I was leaving since one of my friends is leaving to go to Zambia on his coming monday. I thought man I can finally tell people when they asked where I am going where I am going instead of saying well i don't know because they haven't told me yet because it makes me sound like I am lying to them when in reality I don't really know where I am going or what me date will be when I actually leave. It is frustrating, but still true because after thinking that I would know, now I still don't know and am knowwhere nearer to knowing where I am going than before, but according to Tom Petty "Waiting is the hardest part", he was of course refering to something else, but it is still true in appliance to other stuff too. I may not know for another month or two or three or I could find out next week. It is so ambiguous that I have no way of knowing when I will know. I just have to be paitent and check my email and see if they emailed me and not bug them all the time because eventually I will be knowing where I am going and when, but until then, I will just have to tweedle my thumbs and check my email a lot in order to see what is happening but until then, I will be patiently waiting to see what happens.