I had a partial false hope the other day that taught me an excerise in patience and faith because I got an email saying that I was actually cleared to go and was pretty darn excited about it. I thought after onths of not knowing where I was going, I would finally know where I was going and the exact date I was leaving since one of my friends is leaving to go to Zambia on his coming monday. I thought man I can finally tell people when they asked where I am going where I am going instead of saying well i don't know because they haven't told me yet because it makes me sound like I am lying to them when in reality I don't really know where I am going or what me date will be when I actually leave. It is frustrating, but still true because after thinking that I would know, now I still don't know and am knowwhere nearer to knowing where I am going than before, but according to Tom Petty "Waiting is the hardest part", he was of course refering to something else, but it is still true in appliance to other stuff too. I may not know for another month or two or three or I could find out next week. It is so ambiguous that I have no way of knowing when I will know. I just have to be paitent and check my email and see if they emailed me and not bug them all the time because eventually I will be knowing where I am going and when, but until then, I will just have to tweedle my thumbs and check my email a lot in order to see what is happening but until then, I will be patiently waiting to see what happens.

Peace Corps Introduction

I graduated from college and had this huge thought lingering over me which was, "What do I want to go with the rest of my life?" It seems like some kind of thing that begins at movie you go to see in a theater, but instead this is real life with real actions and things can't be rewritten after they are done and realize that they suck. So instead of trying to get a job that I might actually hate, I decided to do something unconventional and really unexpected, I decided to join the Peace Corps. I thought man wouldn't it be good to do something that I actual want to do in my life instead of doing what others expect of me. To take control of my own life and destiny and do something that will make me a better person in life and help others in the process. So I decided all of this the last week of dead week at school. I just left my last class I would ever attend at a university in awhile and then procided to walk over to the Peace Corps building, grab a Peace Corps application. It seems all to weird to actually be true because don't most college kids have a plan for what they want to do when they leave college and yes most do, but how much percentage of their plans or dreams actually come true and then that is the reason why I wanted to join for. I know that I may no get to do what I want to do in the real world or even be able to enjoy what I would do in the real world, so I got the application put it in my backpack, walked home opened my backpack and started to fill out the forms like a madman bent on some mission and to some destination that he had no idea where it would lead. I filled it out in the hope that I would get accepted and the pure faith that I could do something that I had wanted to do all along, but never been able to do. Just some dream that I put into the back of my mind. I was doing what I wanted to do with my life and not caring about what would happend if I didn't get in because that was not an option of even an afterthought in my mind because I somehow had this feeling deep down that this was what I was suppose to do with my life even if it ment 2 years or longer because I was suppose to do this.